From the Heart

Another old blog post, from 2008 I believe:

I act from the heart quite often.  Sometimes that is a good thing and sometimes it gets me into trouble.  I have always said "I am who I am, nothing more, nothing less, just me"  I do what I feel needs to be done in that particular moment or for that particular situation.  The people in my life are there because, I hope, they choose to be there, I would never expect someone to be my friend out of obligation, no one is "expected" to stay a part of my life and I would never want you to feel that way.  I share my life and my heart with those that are important to me and those that I care about, now having said that I will say that sometimes we make choices in our life regarding things or people that we want to change and sometimes it's not an easy thing to do so therefore, those things and people are still a part of your life even though you may want them gone, when the time is right it will happen, because sometimes when you give from the heart and love from the heart those things or people that aren't important or that have shunned you or made you feel less worthy or worthwhile simply must go, and it's a matter of timing and letting go, the pieces must be in place and then the situation will take care of itself.  I am a very caring, nuturing person and I do not enjoy seeing those within my "heart circle"(the ones that really matter and you know who you are) hurt, or suffer in any way, it drives me up the wall because I can't fix it but that doesn't mean I won't try..and try.  I will cry tears for you, worry for you, fight for you, lose sleep, anything if it will make your situation better, and I'll worry about me later.  But if you have hurt me, or made me feel like I'm not worth your time or effort, that I don't matter and that I'm not good enough, (and yes you know who you are also) then you may still be a part of my life but I can guarantee you, you are NOT part of my heart and that you will eventually be put out for good, and the door will hit you in the ass on the way out.    

The Yin and Yang of life

I don't count this as my "true" post for the day as it is a import from an old blog I started in 2008, still words of wisdom, I think...

Everything must be in balance or the order of life will fall apart. Too much of a good thing and a person becomes overconfident and takes things for granted. Too much of a bad thing and a person loses hope and the desire to continue on. A little good mixed with a little bad is what is needed to keep a person humble but just confident enough to continue on, this is the way life is meant to be. A friend of mine once told me there is an imaginary circle around all of us, it defines our comfort zones and where we draw the line at risk taking. We must be willing to push the edges of the circle, continually adjusting our lives and taking risks without completely breaking the line and losing sight of what is truly important, (overconfidence enters here along with the potential for many bad things). If you push too hard and break that line completely you run the risk of losing sight of the center of your circle which is where the things that matter most are and where you are most comfortable. Take risks, that is what helps you grow and develop as a person but do so rationally and if you do break the line or go too far, go back to the center of your circle, collect yourself and try again; hopefully a little wiser and a bit more humble. To not take a risk would be to deny yourself the chance to grow and try new things and this is just as bad as taking too many risks. There must be balance in all things, don't be afraid, if you fall you get back up, think about what you did and figure out a way to do it differently and better; if you take a risk and fail, collect yourself, look at what went wrong and how you can do it better or differently or even if it was worth the risk to begin with. Sometimes the outcome doesn't justify the means to get there so you have to understand and accept this and walk away. Balance, that's what it's about. Yin and Yang, to have harmony you must have both.  

The Path We Walk

People often speak of coincidences, well I am learning that there is no such thing in life.  Everything happens for a reason, whether the reason is clear to us or not doesn't matter.  Our Higher Power is the only one that knows what we are truly meant to do with our lives, and although we are given choices to make and paths to walk, ultimately we will wind up where our Higher Power wants us to be.  We may be allowed to linger for a certain amount of time in relationships and careers, places or situations but if that isn't where we are truly meant to be then something will happen and we will be steered away from that particular part of our life, keep in mind that this will only happen when it is meant to happen, not before.  Sometimes I question a decision or a choice I made, and if I dare to sit down and study that decision or choice then I can usually link it to some prior event in my life, whether it involved me directly or whether I was on the "fringe" of the event, somehow it affected me enough to influence me later in life.  We will all get to the life destination we were meant to get to, I think that the life destinatnion is out of our hands, but the journey is up to us, and that our journey is dictated by our decisions and choices, and how much we learn and experience along the way is directly linked to those choices and decisions.  Enjoy your journey, experience both the good and the bad, and don't always choose the easy path, because sometimes you miss out on some of the most wonderful parts of life if you turn your back and walk away when something gets a little bit tough.