Holy hell, I'm back

It's amazing when you're thinking about something sometimes and then it shows up. That is exactly what happened today. I was thinking about restarting my blog posting and then I went to seach for it and it popped up. It's been awhile since I've done this so here goes. My son is now 24, almost 25, works in law enforcement and truly enjoys his job and is engaged to the most amazing young lady who is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker, I've gained a few pounds and a few tattoos, put in a few more years at my job as an Office Manager and I love it. I've gained some new friends and lost a few that I thought I'd never lose, that hurt, but you learn to move on. I put my camera down several years ago and never picked it up again, I actually got rid of everything. Depression and anxiety are sneaky things, they work their way into your life and rob you of all the things that make you happy, they spiral your thoughts, slow your movements and prevent you from enjoying your life. I began to associate my camera equipment with unhappy moments, using it as a shield or an escape, and not in a good way. I haven't missed it up until the past couple of months so I'm looking at equipment again and may get back into it, we'll see. I lost my husband in October of 2024, very unexpectedly, he was here one day and the next he was gone. I had known him since I was 10 years old so he was a huge part of my life. I still have my dark days, I still cry just sitting in traffic, and the house is so big and empty without him, it's an adjustment I didn't think I'd have to make this early in life. I'm getting better, I have some of the most wonderful friends and co workers. My family has been there with me and my son, fiance, and her family rallied around me and helped me more than they will ever know. Life will go on, people will come and go, but I know that I have a lot to offer this world and I hope that I have the chance to make a difference.